Well... evidently blogging has not been my thing! Sometimes writing can be a wonderful form of catharsis, one which I anticipated I may upkeep during the stress of moving and starting a new job, but God has blessed me with better coping skills than I expected!
In summary of the last 6 months, I moved, started a full time job, forced myself to become an extrovert, found myself exhausted all the time, planted myself into a new church, forced myself to meet new people all the time, continued to be exhausted, and inserted myself back into student ministries with Jr. Highers. And then I realized the following results when I took a moment to breathe: God has blessed me with new friends, new ministry, greater competence at work, financial security to support the ministry of others, as well as joy and confidence in myself as a whole. It's been a fruitful few months!
However, I've also come to the conclusion that my busyness, though beneficial in some ways, has been detrimental in others. Time is far more valuable than I ever realized - and the devil uses that to his advantage on a regular basis. Currently I have a 2 hour commute for work. Perfect time to have some communion with my Jesus. Should be better, I must admit. And by the time I get home at night, I feel like I have no time. If only the days had a few more hours... Oh the common thread that weaves throughout our lives. Balance - what a difficult concept.
Another lesson in the works is contentment. In some ways I am content, wonderfully so. But there are still some gaping holes. And honestly, I believe that contentment is a dangerous thing. I believe it is possible to get too content. If we are content with all things, will we strive for anything? Do we then reach a point of being content with our relationship with God? I certainly hope not. But if we are discontented with everything, are we not then denying that God has provided good things and can fullfill those desires? Such a fine line.
And that is where I remain. Toying with balance. As it may be, I anticipate I will continue with this journey for quite some time. Until my fingers return again...
