I feel like spring has been fighting a losing battle against winter. It's darn near May... less than an away to be precise and yesterday morning I had ice on my windshield. Really? Thankfully the grass is green and the flowers are attempting to grow and bloom, but rain has been prevalent and sun a rare commodity. I'm think I'm trying to fight the changing chapters of life right now too. Failing to stop the imminent closure I might add, but the chapter I've been in has been enjoyable, so the notion of moving into something new is somewhat less than appealing. My friends are moving away. And because I'm the one with the 'real' job, I'm the one who stays put. Sad days.
So... new friends? Let's hope. Not that they can replace those whom I'm losing, not by a long shot, but fellowship is pretty important. God has fulfilled that need in the past and I know he will be faithful again, but his timing is different than mine. Patience...
Saturday, April 30, 2011
Monday, March 21, 2011
Ok, so I'm failing on all accounts to be a faithful writer. Let's see, in the past 2 months I've waded through a mess of busyness at work and feel as though I have become a better therapist as a result! Our only other full time therapist went to her routine pre-natal doctor appointment and called me later to say that she wasn't coming back and wouldn't be leaving her bed until the baby was born. AGH! That first week (which consisted of 7 straight days of work) was excruciating, literally. I have never physically felt that stressed. But a month later, though still very busy, my stamina and coping mechanism is fortified!
In the midst of the chaos at work, I was able to take a spontaneous road trip to Iowa to visit my dear friend Rachael and help her settle in Iowa City. She is such a live-giving friend and it was wonderful visit! The sermon at the church we visited was all about the trials and tribulations that God specifically puts in our lives to grow us. Very fitting for the two of us!
Spring has sprung at home and I have mixed feelings about that. I strongly dislike the transition from winter to summer... mud is not my friend. As odd as it seems based on my history, I actually wish there was a little more winter remaining because I have so thoroughly enjoyed my new endeavor with snowboarding! I do love summer, but spring is so messy. Sure sure, I like the symbolism of the melting of the cold, new life budding and the re-emergence of color, but mud, oh the mud! This past week my car found myself engulfed in this aforementioned mud as I was attempting to leave for work. There's a story behind that, but feel free to use your imagination.
Of much greater excitement, I leave for Ireland on Thursday! Yes indeed, I am taking a vacation to the country I have long been dreaming of visiting! It shall be glorious and I am thoroughly excited! Woohoo!
I believe that summary will suffice and now I shall bid you adieu!
In the midst of the chaos at work, I was able to take a spontaneous road trip to Iowa to visit my dear friend Rachael and help her settle in Iowa City. She is such a live-giving friend and it was wonderful visit! The sermon at the church we visited was all about the trials and tribulations that God specifically puts in our lives to grow us. Very fitting for the two of us!
Spring has sprung at home and I have mixed feelings about that. I strongly dislike the transition from winter to summer... mud is not my friend. As odd as it seems based on my history, I actually wish there was a little more winter remaining because I have so thoroughly enjoyed my new endeavor with snowboarding! I do love summer, but spring is so messy. Sure sure, I like the symbolism of the melting of the cold, new life budding and the re-emergence of color, but mud, oh the mud! This past week my car found myself engulfed in this aforementioned mud as I was attempting to leave for work. There's a story behind that, but feel free to use your imagination.
Of much greater excitement, I leave for Ireland on Thursday! Yes indeed, I am taking a vacation to the country I have long been dreaming of visiting! It shall be glorious and I am thoroughly excited! Woohoo!
I believe that summary will suffice and now I shall bid you adieu!
Sunday, January 30, 2011
6 months and counting
Well... evidently blogging has not been my thing! Sometimes writing can be a wonderful form of catharsis, one which I anticipated I may upkeep during the stress of moving and starting a new job, but God has blessed me with better coping skills than I expected!
In summary of the last 6 months, I moved, started a full time job, forced myself to become an extrovert, found myself exhausted all the time, planted myself into a new church, forced myself to meet new people all the time, continued to be exhausted, and inserted myself back into student ministries with Jr. Highers. And then I realized the following results when I took a moment to breathe: God has blessed me with new friends, new ministry, greater competence at work, financial security to support the ministry of others, as well as joy and confidence in myself as a whole. It's been a fruitful few months!
However, I've also come to the conclusion that my busyness, though beneficial in some ways, has been detrimental in others. Time is far more valuable than I ever realized - and the devil uses that to his advantage on a regular basis. Currently I have a 2 hour commute for work. Perfect time to have some communion with my Jesus. Should be better, I must admit. And by the time I get home at night, I feel like I have no time. If only the days had a few more hours... Oh the common thread that weaves throughout our lives. Balance - what a difficult concept.
Another lesson in the works is contentment. In some ways I am content, wonderfully so. But there are still some gaping holes. And honestly, I believe that contentment is a dangerous thing. I believe it is possible to get too content. If we are content with all things, will we strive for anything? Do we then reach a point of being content with our relationship with God? I certainly hope not. But if we are discontented with everything, are we not then denying that God has provided good things and can fullfill those desires? Such a fine line.
And that is where I remain. Toying with balance. As it may be, I anticipate I will continue with this journey for quite some time. Until my fingers return again...
In summary of the last 6 months, I moved, started a full time job, forced myself to become an extrovert, found myself exhausted all the time, planted myself into a new church, forced myself to meet new people all the time, continued to be exhausted, and inserted myself back into student ministries with Jr. Highers. And then I realized the following results when I took a moment to breathe: God has blessed me with new friends, new ministry, greater competence at work, financial security to support the ministry of others, as well as joy and confidence in myself as a whole. It's been a fruitful few months!
However, I've also come to the conclusion that my busyness, though beneficial in some ways, has been detrimental in others. Time is far more valuable than I ever realized - and the devil uses that to his advantage on a regular basis. Currently I have a 2 hour commute for work. Perfect time to have some communion with my Jesus. Should be better, I must admit. And by the time I get home at night, I feel like I have no time. If only the days had a few more hours... Oh the common thread that weaves throughout our lives. Balance - what a difficult concept.
Another lesson in the works is contentment. In some ways I am content, wonderfully so. But there are still some gaping holes. And honestly, I believe that contentment is a dangerous thing. I believe it is possible to get too content. If we are content with all things, will we strive for anything? Do we then reach a point of being content with our relationship with God? I certainly hope not. But if we are discontented with everything, are we not then denying that God has provided good things and can fullfill those desires? Such a fine line.
And that is where I remain. Toying with balance. As it may be, I anticipate I will continue with this journey for quite some time. Until my fingers return again...
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